This is Me

2010-05-25T10:50:00.002+08:00

Ever felt so alone...oh wells i was feeling so alone ytd..don't know why, maybe cuz my mama went to Macau and left me at home..heh..and my sister is not at home though my bro is at home, the feeling is not the same..
at least my sister is bringing me out tonight for dinner..wahahaaha

thursday is my last paper..woo!! for the semester i meant...the module is just not making sense..

2010-04-26T22:30:00.002+08:00

on sat as i was walking to smu with good friends of mine. was chatting with one of them and she we were talking abt coming out of our comfort zone when she told me to look at it from a different perspective..instead of seeing it as stepping out my comfort zone, see it as expanding my comfort zone. when i start to think about..looking at situations in this way it doesn't feel so intimidating..hehs

Learning to look at things with different perspectives.

and yes as i look at the calendar i have about 1 month to exams..woo!!! i dunno to feel happy tat it is finally coming.. whatever it is i grateful that it is finally coming..

2010-04-15T00:33:00.003+08:00

went to meet a good friend of mine for dinner today (wednesday 14 apr) hahaha!!! its been a long time since i met her up..hahha!! and i realised i kinda miss her..and all the times spent talking and listening to this friend of mine..i know this is kinda random but a sudden tot and question came to me, do I/we miss talking and listening to God? why is it that we only miss not talking, meeting or listening to our friends and not so much when it comes to God. one time to ponder on..

i realised something about myself, you know in a friendship there's usually one that will talk more and the other the listener, welll i think i'm the listener and the talk very little kind of a friend..haha!! though there are times when i talk alot of nonsense..but seriously am the listener kinda person..if there's one thing i can promise you as a friend is that i promise that am a pretty good listener though am rather lousy at giving suggestions or advise.

Which reminds me God is a friend that is a awesome listener and awesome advise giver..he never complains whenever we go to him and just talk, rant and let it all out. You know what is the best part of my friendship with God is that i dun have to worry about the time i can just call out to him and i dun have to put up any pretense aound him.

2010-04-11T11:29:00.003+08:00

i realised the last time i blogged was roughly 2 months ago..hahaha!!! omg what happened to wanting to blog more regularly.. I realised after being active on twitter, the need to blog went way down. haha!!!

now am in the job hunting phase of my life and i totally dislike this process.. its been about a month since my contract ended at LOG..so in this period of unemployment i've been bumming ard..hahah!!! and so what have i been doing..hahaha!!! well i've been meeting up with friends, reading and doing school assignments.. ah which reminds me i have another discussion board thingy and project due next week..

anyways this is my first post using spider..hahahaha!!!
ytd i went to eat the international buffet at swissotel merchant court with my mother and 2 of my gym instructors..i enjoy the dinner and the knowing my gym instrucors a little bit more...

Lost is where you found me
Shattered and frail
But you Love me still
Trouble may surround me
My heart may fail
But you never will
You never will

met up with lili on friday for lunch and a chatting session heh..thanks for the awkward moments to help in sharing haa..been thinking through what was shared and said that day..its not gonna be a easy ride but am going to go ahead.. it will not be one that's smooth, it will not be one that i will like, it will be one that will not be comfortable. It's time to bring down the barriers and start walking forward. i will stop staying where i am or taking a step back..

2010-02-11T09:53:00.001+08:00

i kinda sprained my wrist..i dunno how i did it, the doctor say it might be because when i was carrying heavy stuff i did not carry it properly or it might be when i use the computer mouse i too violent so i sprained my wrist unknowingly..gosh..this is not the first time this happened though..lol just that i did not see the doctor when i got it the previous times, maybe that's why this time it became rather bad....hahaha!!! so my hand kinda like swollen now..hahaha!!! the worse thing is that its my right hand that is injured..so many things i feel weird doing...esp when am bathing..lol..not used to doing things with my left hand..oh wells at least now i've seen the doctor hopefully it'll become better soon..

woohoo!! tmr is FRIDAY!!!!!! i am so excited...about what i don't know..haaaa..

A song tat i stumbled upon while listening for tracks for service on friday. it reminds me of His love for me.. makes my heart fuzzy..

God's Love song to us...
THIRD DAY - JUST TO BE WITH YOU:
"I've heard a tale that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves.
How many times has he broken that promise?
It has never been done
Well I never climbed the highest mountain,
but I walked the hill of calvary

And just to be with you I'll do anything,
there's no price I would not pay, no
Just to be with you I will give everything.
I would give my life away.
Yeaaaa

I've heard it said that a man would swim an ocean
Just to be with the one he loves.
But all of those dreams are an empty emotion
It can never be done.
Well I never swam the deepest ocean
But I walked upon the raging sea

And just to be with you I'll do anything,
there's no price I would not pay, no
and just to be with you I would give everything.
I would give my life away.
Yeaaaa

And I know that you don't understand the fullness of my love
How I died upon the Cross for your sin
And I know that you don't realize how much that I give you
And I promise I would do it all again

Just to be with you I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay, no
Just to be with you I gave everything
Yes I gave my life away.
Yeaaaaa

Just to be with you
Oh, just to be with you (3x)"

2010-02-08T10:03:00.003+08:00

Sleeping on sunday feelssssss GOOOOOOD....LOL hahaha!!! well i woke up at abt 9 sth..went out to the living room and my sister tell me that she's bringing Qiqi to the dog run in Bishan Park and than she asked me if i want to go..lol she was meeting her friend at 10 there..and she only told me abt it at abt 935 liddat..so i rushed to bathe and eat my breakfast..in the end we left my house at 955am and we are so late..hahaha!!! we walked to the park and boy and Qiqi walk fast..hahaha!!!! i ran abit with her, bringing qiqi out is good exercise.. when we reached the park there were alot of dogs there big and small also have. hahah!!! Qiqi was so scared to let other dogs small her behind that she whined and bark so my sister must rescue her..even when Qiqi was on the chairs the other dogs refuse to let her go lol so she bark and bark..hahaha!!! She is so funnny..

Let me show u guys a few photos

Introducing Qiqi and my sister's leg..LOL

This is Qiqi hiding behind my sister to get away from Kiki (this male black poodle)

and qiqi again finally away from hiding and attempting to make friends with Kiki

And this is Qiqi when she was still a puppy...hahaha!!! sooooo cuteeeee hor..

2010-02-04T09:41:00.002+08:00

school has finally started for me..school's on monday and wednesday, i am back to the no life amelia again.. mon, wed school, tues, thurs gym, friday if there's no prac i would like to rest at home..hahaha!!! nah....i am not no life amelia..i have a life its just the way i live it..
remember in my first post of the year i said that i can only skip school only once per mod..i think am gonna find that resolution hard to keep..both of my teachers are super chiong hei, one of them ended class late and the other one will end class at 10 sharp which is kinda a good thing lol..
I think i freaking suay all the transportation i take home for the past 2 days were freaking smellly, but the tuesday one was the killer, me piggy and ah lin took 93 home from ikea and when we boarded the bus we almost died, so a few stops ltr we decided to alight and take cab instead, sadly the cab stinks too...thank God it wasn't stuffy and the air-con was blowing quite strongly so it was bearable....my gosh bus drivers shld on the bus air-con bigger when there's alot of ppl in the bus so it won't feel so stuffy and smelly..

anyways...i am so looking forward to sunday, in the morn go hopekids, aft tat eat lunch den chiong home and catch up on some sleep..i've been on deprivation for the longest time ever..3 weeks...anymore i think soon i'll just fall sick..

2010-02-01T11:37:00.001+08:00

some of the stage shots..hahaha!!! i found them on the net..so these pictures are not taken by me...LOL

2010-02-01T10:28:00.002+08:00

Feb is here...hahahaha!!! one month of 2010 has passed, soon it'll be cny, YAY ang pows..

Went to the gym last thurs, i had to choose between IKEA's meatballs or gym, in the end i am amazed by the choice i made....LOL i chose to go to the gym, can you believe it...i chose gym over meatballs, i wonder what made me do it sia..anw i'm glad i went to the gym heh. That day there was a kickboxing session, it seriously proved that i have no hand leg eye co-ordination. and now am wondering how did i managed to play games like bball and badminton..haha!!!! maybe there's no link between them..

oh wells.....

Sat aft service i went for dinner with ah girl, aloy and dai, than i rushed off to meet my sister in Bishan to go SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM FOR A*MEI"S AMIT CONCERT!!! hahaha!!! wells we reached sth stadium only at about 815pm, thank God the concert haven't started yet..haha!! infront of us there was a japanese man, his wife and father, lol they were rather high, it was so funny..
anw I LOVE THE CONCERT ALOT!!! it was a different style from her usual concerts and sadly she did not perform on my favourite four sided stage..haha!!! anyways i still love her stage layout, it was simple and nothing fancy when you first looked at it, but when the concert started, the stage came alive with fabulous lightings and backdrops...this is the first time i see her using the backdrops as part of her whole concert.
the lightings were amazing, capture the music very well, all the timings and stuff..and the backdrop images are nice, it'll be nicer if we were sitting in the center..LOL..
Ok the difference in this concert and her previous concerts is that this is a fully rock concert with a few number of surprises from her...she sang a opera song in super high notes.. i was so amazed at the power of it..OMG..and at one song of the concert she had a lion performing with her, it was so cute..haahah!!!
Not only does she have very powerful vocals, she has really good stage presence and her ability to interact with the audience is amazing, she's got a good sense of humor. lol.
oh and her guitarists and bassist, use wireless connections so they can run ard the whole stage it was fun seeing the musicians being able to run ard the stage, and her backup singers they weren't standing at the back but they were at the front..and you could see them having fun in the concert as well..haha!!! there weren't any back up dancers in this concert..ahaha!!!

all in all i really had fun at the concert!! and her voice is still amazing!!

aft the concert we drove down to geylang to eat frog porridge, fuyong egg and my favourite si ji dou..hahaha!! the food was delicious...aft eating my sister drove her friends and me home...

the next day, which is ytd, my mum, sister and i brought my cousin and aunt to Singapore zoo..hahaha!!! i had so much fun there seeing all the animals, walking ard the zoo and taking the tram..wells the only thing we didn't take was the boat ride..hahaha!!! watched part of the animal show, the sea lion is sooo cute..hehe..took alot of pictures but i don't have them with me its with my sister, i shall wait for her to send them to me..hahaha!!!

went to cut and dye my hair ytd..was at the saloon for abt 3 to 4 hrs..LOL sit till my arse hurt..

And now i am back at work again..hais i am so bored now..haha!!

2010-01-22T08:46:00.003+08:00

this week has got to be the most happening week in the office..LOL 2 coffee pots broke in 2 days..amazing right the strength of the ppl here..hahaha!!! and everyday its freezing in the office, i want to adjust the temperature..but cannot, this lady in the office will nag when someone adjust the temperature, its just annoying because of her side of the office everybody else have to suffer...and i'm usually the last person that will complain cold, so when i say its cold it means it really is. and the worse part is the aircon is blowing directly at me and literally in my face..finally i become smart and decide to bring my hoody today so i won't feel cold. yeah :D

heee:) i've been very productive in office increasing my music collection and found a few eye candies in the process..LOL i feel like some hamsup po...

hahaha!!! well i shall show u some photos

Eye candy #1

Eye Candy #2 (its the guy hahah!! the girl is chio tooo)

Eye Candy #3

Eye Candy #4

2010-01-19T09:49:00.002+08:00

i take bus to work everyday and today is the first time i missed my bus stop because i was sleeping on the bus. When i woke up i saw my bus stop zoom by..than i think to myself oh shit, what a great way to start work and i was having a bad stomach, i was so tempted to alight and take cab into work. Haha!! in the end i didn't, i took the shuttle bus at the mrt station and its not free lo, have to pay 40 cents. Previously it was 20 cents, and you know why they increase the price?? The company say its because they did not increase price for the past 10 years...-_-'''

Alright, i finally got my timetable and i finally know when school is starting. haha!!! i need school to faster start, i need to use my braincells more, working has made me dumb..haha!!!

2010-01-16T21:29:00.002+08:00

i shall attempt to blog more often..
i realised as i listen to things, i tend to imagine images in my head..if only i can put them into words, tat would be more helpful..

2010-01-15T14:26:00.002+08:00

"Note To God"

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

No, no no no
We can't do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

i first heard this song on the final result show of singapore idol season 3..when i heard the singer, my jaw dropped, she is so young only 17 but her voice sound like damn old laaa...haha!!!

anyways went to visit my grandmother ytd at CGH..she just had a operation ytd night for her back, am glad to see that she's ok and recovering:)

Went to bedok blk 85 ytd for dinner after visiting my grandmother, my first visit there and the food is amazing man!!!

2010-01-13T08:04:00.002+08:00

First post on 2010....
i kept on telling myself to blog, but everytime i 'm in the new post page and start to type the first sentence i give up halfway and decides not to blog..i need to change this... LOL what's the point of having a blog if i don't blog..

Ok..a few updates for you, i started working at Larsen again as a temp receptionist after my exams in nov, the job is pretty simple and freaking slack...well in other words they're kinda like paying money to me to slack..haha!!!! no laaaa..i got do my job de lo..ans phone calls, open door, order stufff, distribute letters, doing labels..blah blah..basically also can be known as sai kang warrior..LOL slightly better by abit..haha!!! dun have alot of sai..somehow..i do miss working in cpf..hahah!!! apart from the friends i miss the work..processing all those applications was kinda fun and kinda fulfilling..but anyways since its over and i have moved on, i must strive to do the best i can in my current workplace, but den again how do i do my best..it'll be a qns i ask myself everyday.. I realised sth abt myself as i grow older i become not so relational i used to be able to talk to these 2 people together, but now when i eat with them and with another one of my friends who i can talk to pretty well i got nth to say and i'll just keep quiet and listen to the 3 of them speak and only talk when i have sth to say or when they ask me sth.. is it me or them..hmmmm..LOL

another update i joined the gym near my house there, its a woman gym..hmmmm..since starting exercising i feel healthier and not so sickly..lol anyways exercising really does wonders to your body..yaynesss am no that flabby anymore..lol ok that's not the main point of exercising. Really wanna have a healthy lifestyle..Grant me the discipline to continually live this kind of a lifestyle.

Ok for this new yea i have set some things i wanna see...

1) i wanna serve in HopeKids

(i have volunteered already, i don't want to give up halfway, until they don't need me anymore, i will want to serve in HopeKids)

Why i wanna do this is cuz as most people know i don't really like kids..why, cuz i think they are noisy and too active for my liking, this shld not be a reason why i don't want to serve in HopeKids if it can advance the kingdom, why not just do it, since i have the skills required to help them, den why not, i wanna bless the kids ministry. so yea...also i wanna break out of my comfort zone, i find i have become comfortable serving in youth. And the last reason is i wanna build discipline in my life.

2) i wanna be faithful in send out recordings

ok i managed to send out my first recording this week, i must not give up halfway, if i cannot even be faithful in this, how am i gonna be entrusted with greater stuffff.. also recordings will help the musios, singers, lead worshippers and sound to improve. Therefore amelia remember you must be faithful and send out recordings weekly and not give up halfway.

3) i can only skip class once per module

i must be a good student and not skip classes. the previous semester i skipped so many classes tat if i plus all the classes tat i've attended it will not the be even the number of classes per module..seee!! wat a wonderful student i am. i must not skip classes and do better this semester.

4) i wanna care for my voluteers like i care for my sheeps

this is a open declaration i wanna be a SHEPHERD!!!! i miss having someone to take care of...it'll not be easy, but i wanna do it...

I want my people to be strong and reaching their best potential. I don't want to just have a leader-volunteer realationship, i want to know them, i want them to know me, and i want to help them..But GOd please help me to bring down my barrier..

5) better relationship with my brother

I find this is a prayer i make every year. God help me to have patience and more love for my brother. Help me to understand him better, help me to relate to him better, and God open up his eyes to seeee.

6) Building stronger bonds with my LG and Shep

Well, we're still realatively new, i wanna avail myself more to my LG mates and hang out with them more. God help me help me to be more deep and relational, help me to find the courage and openess to share abt my life more.

Also a stronger r/s with my shep..heh:)

7) Going to the gym at least once a week and sleeping at least 6.5 hrs

wanna have a healthy lifestyle.

Alright this is it for now..

2009-11-17T16:43:00.002+08:00

i've been out of action for abt month..hahaha!!! i meant online action. well my com went crazy and refused to let me go online, so i din have time to get it fixed till recently. Seriously i should have gotten a laptop instead of a desktop, than sending it for repair would have been easier.. LOL oh wells at least when i send it down to IBP i had someone who accompanied me, w/o which my journey would have been a boring one and one which i think i'll struggle in LOL. Thankew Ruiz for coming with me even though it was last minute and uber far, but i enjoyed the time spent with you. yeah!!! we may not be shepherd and sheep anymore but we are still friends heh:)

Studying with Lili was awesome!!! i managed to achieve many things which i think if i'm left by my own, i'd probably won't achieve that much.. Yea so thankew Lili for studying with me:)

ah..and i went to have lunch with wugui at IMM aft my paper last friday, haha!!! been such a long time since i stepped into IMM, ate at subway..lol i couldn't fin my way there. After that i took the IMM bus to IBP to collect my CPU..hehe.. yea so now am back in cyber space..i am here to torment the world..lol

ahhhhhh wellls....i think i'm useless i can't cut stuff properly cuz am scared i'll cut myself, am scared of climbing the ladder or height, cuz i scared i'll fall off, am scared of lighting a fire cuz i scared i'll burn myself. I remember last time in sec schoool there's this subject called D&T, i'll ask my friends to operate the machines for me cuz i scared i'll buff my fingers, or drill a hole in my own hand, or cut my fingers away.. so now u know why i choose Accounts instead of F&N and D&T...oh yah i scared to operate the sewing machine cuz i scared i'll sew myself...my conclusion I AM useless..

2009-10-23T10:18:00.002+08:00

3 months of working at CPF is now over..haha!!! now when i think abt it, its kinda the first place that i actually really enjoyed working at..lol.. guess apart from the friends i made there, why i enjoy working there is cuz at least the forms that i'm processing/keying i know that somewhere out there it impacts someone, and if i dun do it properly it'll affect the company. In some sense am given some power to decide how much work i want to do and at what pace. i'm glad that my supervisor trust me enough to do sth for her, which if not done properly it'll sorta have to cause them to do it again. so yea..

So now that i stop working there le think i'll miss my friends there like pao, ro, clement, jon and siti..the ppl i talk crap with, zi hai with in office and lunching.

I went to watch My sister's keeper last friday, i rather enjoyed the movie, it was kinda sad. Something to learn from the movei, learn to let go of things, listen to what the person wants. oh and the person sitting next to my mum fainted in the movie, but we din know till the end of the movie, thank God there were some nursing students in the cinema or else..hmmm..but anyway we called the ambulance la, so think the girl is fine.

2009-10-08T22:14:00.002+08:00

I AM STUCK.....

hahaha!!! not in the toliet bowl laaaaa...
i was stuck with my assignment, dunno what to write.. oh wells after thinking long and hard i finally thought of what to write..

i went to Hog's Breath ytd for dinner with my mama, sister and keith..keith drove us there..lol the jam in cte is like........
the food there is good..but i think sometimes they are quite in consistent in the food..sometimes its nice, sometimes its not...just nice ytd was nice, so we were satisfied..it was my third time there.

went for hope kids last sunday for their children's day service, seeing and hearing the children's choir is just so sweet and endearing..
haha!! the thing is i dun dare to go near kids, cuz i think they are violent and noisy and uncontrollable..but then we have to invest in their lives..hmmmm..i think its a challenge to wake up early on a sunday morning, lol...i shall give it some thought..

2009-10-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

when i came home today, my mama gave me a surprise by telling me she got me A*mei's concert tickets (30th Jan at the indoor stadium) and its the most expensive de.. omg i was like soooo happy la..haha!! can't believe it la..gonna watch her concerts 3 times in 3 years..woohoo awesomenesss!!!! yay!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! lalala..you shld have seen me when i first heard the news..heheeee..

2009-09-27T19:16:00.002+08:00

helllo!!!! haha!!! yeah...i am back to bloooooggggggg.....

Work this week was enjoyable though me and my colleague's workload had increased when another colleague quitted..despite this i was kinda happy and had a few instances of zi high-ness in office which rarely happens(in my other jobs).. Think as i work in CPF or work more i kinda begin to see things in a new light..like i begin to find joy in work..lol (How did this ever happened).

Was serving ytd, mixed the instruments..as i think back, the journey in sound had not been easy or rather a smooth one. Met alot of obstacles, had bad comments, had good comments, setbacks.. i remembered crying a few times as i served, can't remember what for, i rarely cry, so when i do it means its something really huge, or sth i feel really unjust (sth like bu fu qi that kind of thing), i remember being frustrated with myself, being irritated with ppl, being grumpy, having bad spirit, being tired. But above everything else i remember the joy i feel when i serve God in sound, i remember the passion i have for this ministry, i remember the satisfaction i get from serving, i remember the ppl i serve with and the ppl who have taught me much, i remember the many blessings from serving, i remember the LOVE that is shown, i remember the care and concern ppl showed, i remember the precious relationships built, i remember the scene of ppl crossing the line..

as i think, i thank God for placing me in sound, i thank God for growing me, i thank God for sustaining me, i thank God for believing in me, i thank God for placing ppl in my life..

2009-09-14T16:30:00.002+08:00

i seriously think i'm a complete genius...
i'm such a genius that i forgot to bring my handphone out and i forgot to bring out my wallet too..argh..today is not a good day for me..
and another thing i was ordering mixed rice, i tot the veg was kang kong, but it was spinach, and i can't eat spinach..so in the end i din touch my vege at all..damn sad..

2009-09-04T15:46:00.002+08:00

Think its been quite some time since i last blogged..
haha!!! oh wells am a lazy blogger and blog only when there's a need or feeling..

Well the first round of testing the new system at work is ending today..haha!! the next round will start about 2 weeks ltr..neways i found out my bosses are nice people.

Neways i think its cool that one of them is serving in her church as well, and we kinda chatted over email abt what we do in church.. haha!!! she quite Gong shi gong ban de..at work its all serious stuff. aft work or out of office we are friends..so got to know her a little better. yea!! I hope i'll be able to help her too..heh:)

anyways i went for my op or rather procedure last week..it was an extremely painful process at the end of the first round i was tearing at the end. I tot it was ending le, but den the chief came in and found out that there's a sound that's not supposed to be there sounding, he did a check on me and realised that the machine was positioned wrongly or not accurately. so he adjusted the machine and i went through the second round, the second round wasn't so bad, he kept the energy level constant and this round was shorter compared to the first one.

Aft the whole procedure i had back aches for abt 3days, its kinda the after effect of the procedure..

oh yah did i say am blogging in the office now..lol
gotta end here, work's coming in soon.. ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!

2009-08-09T22:52:00.002+08:00

alright in my previous post i said i had to go for my doc's appt earlier. And guess what the news wasn't bad neither was it very good. I just have kidney stone, but its ok all i need to do is go for some shockwave treatment thingy. yea..thank God..phew..

After a few years of not watching the ND parade, i watched it today and i think wah..not bad ah this year's one..i think my favourite part of the parade is the going through time tat one where got the performances from the diff times and also another fav part is the Wei Lian sang with Gayle..quite nice.

Played reverse catching today, it was fun and tiring...gosh tqj you can really run.. haha!!! the cg came to me hse today to cook for DK and have lunch with him to celebrate his bday..we like went ard NP like mad trying to find him..lol..

uber sleepy now..but i gotta do me project..:(

2009-08-06T19:57:00.002+08:00

well...in my last post i was sick..and here i am sick again..darn..this sucks it has barely been a month and am sick again. hais..immune system what has happen to you????

here's some updates, i've started working at CPF board le about 2 weeks ago...well my department is nice.. hahah!!! my supervisor is a very nice lady and my bosses (by this i mean my 2 managers) are quite nice and rather young too, though i have not worked with them much..mayb next week den i'll know..

school has started too..well and the craziness begins..projects submissions again..haha!! OB was kinda interesting, marketing was fun and stats was boring..LOL..i made some pretty nice friends..and the interesting thing is that we don't mix ard in class much, but we only mix around when we are going out of school where we'll get lost.. the thing is i don't have much classes in HQ where i know my way around better, but i have classes in SP and NP where the place is big and everything looks the same to me..

went for my x-ray on tues, the doc injected me with some liquid, think i bled quite alot cuz they had to wipe my hand a few times after they took out the needle...now think there's a small bruise..hahah!! i could see my veins..u know the green line thingy it was like super obvious kinda scary. now cannot see le..phew..

got a phone call from the hospital ytd telling me that my doc wants to see me today, but i can't, so my appt is tmr aftnoon instead..my supervisor and mama tells me that if the hospital calls and wants to see me earlier den the fixed appt it means that they have some bad news for me..man i am damn scared and worried now. I have no idea what to expect..i am hoping really hard that its not bad news..

I AM FREAKING FREAKING FREAKING SCARED SCARED SCARED!!!

2009-07-10T10:20:00.003+08:00

i have decided to blog after a long while, wellllll..haha!! the sick bug caught me last week. Coughed like mad..lol have to wear mask haha!!! and here's the photo of me wearing the mask.lol i look like some person planning to kill/rob someone..

haha!!! now i am feeling better...alot of phelgm though..haha!! damn disgusting.....oh wells went for a job interview ytd at MOM..hehe..din really felt like a interview though, they were doing it like we've got the job le.. My agent called me this morning to tell me and my friend that we've got the job. haha!!! joke la..i hope the job is good, the ppl ard is good and the supervisor is nice..

Think i've got to stop doing the domestic helper job le..so sad..oh wells what to do i need more cash flow, at least help my mama a little..

think this year we spent alot of money on medical.. sianz..

I pray my immune system will be stronger.

2009-06-09T09:26:00.002+08:00

last week must have been the most frustrating week of the year for me..had to settle all my school stuff..lol i rather not talk about it..

anyways i slept with good news ytd that i got my subsidy!!!! Thankew God.
also havta thank my sis and keith for helping me sia..

CAMP IS COMING!!!!!!!!! its this friday!!! omg!!! so fast..

2009-05-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

went to celebrate stef's bday ytd..haha!!! and my friends told me that i can write "Amelia's series of unfortuate events".. LOL cuz i was telling them my misfortunes when i was younger..

let me tell you a few,

1) when i was in primary 3 or so, normally my maid would come down and pick me up aft the school bus drops me off near my block. One my mama decided that i can come up on my own without my maid coming to pick me up, that night i was very excited cuz it's the first time i go home myself, so i started running in the carpark to reach home faster and i trip and fell banged my teeth on the floor, as you can guess my mouth bleeded like mad. Thus the chip on my front teeth. Yes go on laughing at me..oh wells from then on my maid come down to pick me up everyday until the day she went back.. lol

2) again in primary school or so, i was going out with my mama to my aunty's or uncle's place for bbq or steamboat. My mama asked me to carry the empty water container the kinds you use when you go out have bbq. so anyways she was walking in front, walking quite fast, so being young and having short legs then i ran aft her a little and yes again i tripped and fell, and my leg sorta like glided on the floor. the wound was kinda big and painful. It was on the carpark floor, the container glided a little too. So my mama turned back and scolded me for being clumsy and checking whether the container got spoil anot, seems like she cared more for the container then me..lol no la in the end she help me wash the wound and put the yellow color lotion thingy wghen we reached my aunty's or uncle's hse.

3) this time i upgrade liao become secondary school. Think i was about sec 1 liddat, was playing basketball with my friends. playing quite hiongly, the ball was flying out i chionged to get it but den hor i din see that the bench was there by the time i did, i couldn't stop and i was running super fast, the most sway part was there's a guy sitting there so to avoid hitting him i had to siam and so my stomach area or sth hit the handle of the bench and my knee hit the leg of the chair. The result is i had 2 big bruises that day. All the guy fault, sit there make me cannot break my fall better instead make me worse..lol.

4) again in secondary school and also playing basketball with a bunch of friends. My friend was shooting, and she missed. My friend and was trying to get rebound, in the end it went out of our reach so we ran aft the ball and we tripped over each other so in order to break my fall and not land on top of her i landed in a very weird way and so i sprained my ankle, it was sooooooo painful la.. worse part was i had to walk home. on my way limping home this aunty came to me and say you sprained your leg ah, try reaxing your leg and shake it to loosen the vein or sth.. so i listened and tried, it din really work cuz mine wasn't the vein that kanna. When i reached home i called my father, he made an appointment with the tie da and came to pick me up immediately. when the doc was massaging or rather rubbing my leg, he did sth and i shouted and started crying cuz i was sooooo pain, in the end i couldn't run or do any strenous activity for a long time. haha!! had to stop going for netball, neways my netball cher was very good to me, haha she treated me to a sandwich and drinks once.

i shall stop here..it stills hurt to think abt this..hahaha

2009-05-15T00:10:00.002+08:00

i have a sudden urge to blog, so i shall do it..
I'm having a bad throat now, on monday it felt worse. But now my throat feels like its being wrapped in some plastic sheet and trapped behind a wall..the feeling is terrible..its like its stuck somewhere and cannot force out. and i realised i can't talk over a long period of time or i'll start losing my voice and have trouble talking. Feeling so tired now, think i used up all my strenght talking lol..(not true) its cuz i woke up uber early today.

oh wells i am now at a loss for wat to do...i need to consult my big daddy

i shall blog till here

2009-05-13T12:02:00.004+08:00

I wonder where have the motivation to blog has gone to?? hmmmm..
anyways this sentence from a song has been stuck on me ever since i heard the song, the sentence goes like this "when no one seems to understand, I Do" thus the msn nick...
so when no one seems to understand, who does. Would anyone understand even if u explain. As i watching a TV drama i line went like this, You don't understand the pain you're putting everyone through, den the person replies back if i told u how i feel and what i want would u understand what i am going through.. Everyone wants someone who understands them, but den in the limited world, who is the one person who truly understands. Even your loved ones, spouse, mother, father, sister, brother cannot understand u fully. So the question remains, who can understand u fully. And the song goes on and say i knit u in your mother's womb and called u by name.. now we have the answer..the one who knew us before we were formed, before we knew him. The best parent, lover, friend anyone could have.. Decipher it yourself..

2009-04-02T23:13:00.002+08:00

all right!! i am backkkk..lol..a friend tole me i blog once in awhile to clean of the cobwebs in my blog..how true is that..hehe

neways my birthday just passed like not too long ago..had about 1.5 weeks of celebrations which i totally enjoyed.

First up was dinner with my girls namely ling, cher, mich and stef (*too bad piggy is not here at the moment, she's in brisbane studying). Had zi char with them. which they were so sweet to blanjar me, and they surprised me with a cake too..so sweet hor..aft that we went to cher's hse to WII!!!!! hehe.. the dinner may be simple or food not so good but to mean i guess the time i spent with them is wat i value more that night.

Second was dinner with me Poly mates also my girls lol..and they are JH*, WW* (*wheelchair reunion, we ROCK!!!) Lilian, Jac, Peiwen, Huiyu and YeeYong. Ate at Swensons with this bunch, had a wonderful time with them, it's been long since i last saw all of them. They bought me a ice cream cake and balloons, and made swenson play the bday song..soooo paiseh, previously had aalready listened to the song like 2 times le, mine is the third.. lol..

Thirdly was dinner with Ruiz and Davin..hahaha!!!! super long neh eat dinner with the both of them le..it was a good time spent, catching up with Ruiz..hehe we were walking ard Marina Square while waiting for Davin to come..We ate at Coffee Club..omg the dish i ate was nice, it had a weird name too piri piri chicken..lol..we ate desserts too, the apple crumble is soooooo goooooood...*mouth watering just thinking about it*

Fourth, i had dinner with my family at some thai restaurant near the national library..yeah..the food is soooooo goooooood man..fantabulous..the last time i ate thai food was when i went to thailand..lol..

hahaha!!! so many to write..oh man..ok i shall write one more last one..lunch at ashtons with me cg, hahaha!! it wasn't an easy task to get there, i walked so much that day, but i really thank all of u for the love and effort put into celebrating my bday that day. I felt really loved and touched. Thank you guys sooooo much.

During this period i feel soooo blessed by God. I got a job that allows me great flexibilty, though does not pay much but at least its something and i get to learn a number of things tooo.. i got to work in larsens again for abt 1 week plus getting to catch with my friends at work it feels great though i had nth much to do lol.. plus all the great frens i had to hung out with me over the period of me celebrating my bday..heee

and thanks to all who wished me via sms, facebook or msn..THANK YOU!!!

2009-02-20T23:57:00.002+08:00

hmmmm..like seriously...i dun really care anymore..i shall not be the nice person anymore...hahaha!!!!

alright monday wii was FUN!!!! had muscle ache the next day though from the boxing. its so awesome to see cher, ling, mich again..had so much fun with them..

sunday went to old airport road with muskles and piggy..am supposed to use nicknames for them..neways while driving muskles got lost so had to call for help..hahaha!!! damn funny and she had a ultra big bruise on her leg..like damn huge la.. neways that's not the point. OMG the food is like heavenly la..i can't wait to go back there again..i doubt anyone will take me there again though. Went to muskles house aft eating and i sat on her massage chair uber shuang, she plugged in a music player and the chair went according to the song's beat..hahaha

i went to eat teppanyaki today with shan..very nice sia..prob will go again some time soon..

i am bored but am lazy to type..........LOL

2009-02-02T14:46:00.002+08:00

gonna be a little emo in this post..hmmmmm..i always wonder, aft opting out from a grp my friends form. Contacts has ceased to exist. Like celebrating christmas, cny, new year or whatever, i am never included anymore. What does the 3 years spent tgt mean to everyone. i hope none of them read this post at all.
Mayb i shld have never opted out at all. But up till now i've never regretted my decision. i think i'll feel pressure if i stayed on cuz probably out of the 10 meet ups they have i can only make it for 1.

oh wells..dun want to say anymore le.. emoed

2009-01-30T12:13:00.003+08:00

i am............BACKKKKKKKK!!!!

wahaha!!! i think i am a uber lazy blogger.

ok my first post of year 2009 that is abt 30 days late..lol

I wanted to blog on the first day of 2009, but look now is chinese new year.
So here's a BIIIGGGG HHHHAAAPPPPYYYY NNNNEEEEWWWW YYYYEEEEAAAARRRR to alllll!!

ok this Chinese New Year had been great, apart of all the ang bows i got, the time spent with family is sooooo goood, and the food was fantabulous..haha!!!

I guess this new year was a many firsts..

it was a first time i got ang bows from my cousins hahaha!!! 3 of them to be exact
it was a first time i went to my first uncle's house. Believe it or not in my 21 plus years of living on earth i've never been to his house before.
it was the first time i met my cousin's mother in law from china, she's a nice lady cuz she say i very cute..hahah!!! no la she's really nice
this sunday will be the first time i go to my 4th uncle's new house in eunos.
it was a first time for me to get stomach flu too, it came ytd and i still have it now as am typing this post. I've never felt so sick before in my life apart from the bad gastic i got like 3 to 4 years ago, where i was unable to sleep and walk properly.

I din have any appetite to eat at all..i struggled to finish a packet of noodle ytd so i could take medicine for my headache and fever. At night i struggled to eat a little rice, we were having steamboat..sad.. i took a few mouths of rice and i din eat anymore and i vomitted it out. So technicallyy i oni ate noodle the whole day.

i went to the doctor just now, he gave me some medicine. i just ate porridge my first meal of the day. I still feel bloated now..shucks

2008-11-28T14:38:00.002+08:00

Alright, I shall not post up stories today, but an update on what I’ve been doing.

Well work has been a bore. I’ve got nothing much to do, so basically for the past 1 and a half weeks they have been paying me to come to work to nuah. Hahaha!!! oh wells its good money lah. But den again it’s a waste of time.

So I’ve been using the time that I nuah in office constructively.. Let me break it down for you.
In the morning when I reach office, I check my mails, reply if necessary, read news on channelnewsasia.com, straitstimes.com and bbc.com.. Usually I’ll stop at cna and strait times.. hahaha!!!! Read too much of the news I can get depressed and sad..hahaha!!! So sad what’s happening ard the world. I can do all these the whole morning with the occasional acts of being busy. Alright so after that is lunch..hehe..

After lunch, I’ll blog surf, I’ll check email again, if the bosses aren’t walking around much I’ll be reading comics online, surf the net, looking out for stuff , den if I haven’t finish reading the news I will continue reading news, cuz sometimes got updates also mah.. hahaha!!! I wish I cld play games or read my storybook, sadly I can’t.

Oh the other thing I do is msning..hahaha!!! Internet and msn is like ur best buddy at work sia. Every single time I’m bored I can find sth I can do on the internet or I disturb my friends using msn.. My outlook is also my good friend, email my friends so it becomes like a chat room for us.
Alright this is the outline of what I do in office when I have nth or nth much to do..I’ve often told my friends I would rather have a lot of things to do than nth to do, hah!! U must think I am crazy for saying this, oh wells it’s true, if I have nth to do at work, I’ll find it meaningless to come to work. I’ve been dragging myself to work this few days or in fact this whole week.

I am going to rather random, I’ll just type whatever things that comes to my mind..

I din go to work ytd, partly cuz I din want to go to work, partly cuz I want to see the doc for my rashes on my leg that doesn’t seem to go away and finally cuz I wanted visit the dentist and have my teeth checked. I spent a bomb ytd on all these, 39.90 for the doctor and 135 for the dentist. Hahaha!!! I had polishing and 3 fillings, haha!!! This is what I get fro not visiting the dentist for at 1.5 years or 2 years. The last time I visited the dentist was to extract a tooth that was putting pressure on the growth of my wisdom tooth, I am so thankful that I dun have to extract my wisdom tooth.

You know when I was in primary school, I was so afraid to go the dentist, hahaha!!! I crumble in fear whenever I see a person with the red board walk in to call names, I’ll hope in my mind *don’t call my name (until they walk out)* and feel like crying if they do call my name. Once I was called to the dentist and the dentist was going to do sth to me but I can’t remember what it was but I started crying and run to the place where we wait for our turn, refusing to go towards the chair, the dentist or rather nurse scolded me and threatened me with sth I think it was an injection, I cried harder after hearing what she’ll do to me. She gave up and asked me rather fiercely that if I rather let her do what she’s supposed to do or see the principal. Hahaha!!! so I replied rather guai lanly and relieved at the same time that I rather see my principal.. hahaha!!!! When I think back on this incident I’ll laugh at myself. Now I would voluntarily go to the dentist myself. This is a joke man.

Okok..enough on this embarrassing childhood memories, I paiseh sia.. aiyah oh wells.. on wed I went with my mum and sister to buy a Christmas tree at takashimaya cuz my smart brother went to throw away our tree, which my mum bot like oni 2 years or so ago only.. make us waste unnecessary money to buy another tree. Anyways that is not the point, so after buying the tree we went home and set it up, put all the decorations and stuff oni to find that the lights are missing too..omg..hahaha!! so my mum went to buy the lights ytd..so smart right my brother. He was supposed to buy the tree, but in the end he din want to buy le, so we the ladies have to go and buy and carry it home ourselves. Sometimes I think to myself why do I have such a brother..

Ooooohhhhh…..before buying the tree we went to eat at Fish & Co, yummy yummy yummy..had seafood platter for 2, shared with my sister..hehehehe..

Randomness…

Out of my randomness I shall post some photos..

My work desk...hahaha

Some stupid thing my fren did when i din go to work on thurs

A faded rainbow last saturday, sooo pretty, this was taken by my F480 camera

ok i shall end it here..till next time...byyyyeeeeeee

2008-11-24T14:22:00.000+08:00

A Heart Warming Story

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:

When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection.

Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do.

He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled, comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'

Then he told the following story:

Shay and I had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball.

Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?'

I knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but as a father I also understood that if my son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

I approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play...

The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning.

I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt.

I watched with a small tear in my eye and warmth in my heart.

The boys saw my joy at my son being accepted.

In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three.

In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as I waved to him from the stands.

In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.

Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?

Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.

The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.

The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.

As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over.

The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman.

Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates.

Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first!

Run to first!'

Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.

He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!'

Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base.

By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team.

He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.

Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.

All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'

Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third! Shay, run to third!'

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!'

Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team

'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.

Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making me so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them...

2008-11-19T09:44:00.001+08:00

A Chinese man walks into a bank in New York City and asks for the loan officer. He tells the loan officer that he is going to China on business for two weeks and needs to borrow $5,000.

The bank officer tells him that the bank will need some form of security for the loan, so the Chinese man hands over the keys to a new Ferrari parked on the street in front of the bank. He produces the title and everything checks out. The Loan officer agrees to accept the car as collateral for the loan.

The bank's president and its officers all enjoy a good laugh at the Chinesefor using a $250,000 Ferrari as collateral against a $5,000 loan. An employee of the bank then drives the Ferrari into the banks underground garage and parks it there.

Two weeks later, the Chinese returns, repays the $5,000 and the interest, which comes to $15.41. The loan officer says, 'Sir, we are very happy to have had yourbusiness, and this transaction has worked out very nicely, but we are alittle puzzled.

While you were away, we checked you out and found that you are a Multi-millionaire. What puzzles us is why you would bother to borrow $5,000?

The Chinese replies: 'Where else in New York City can I park my car for two weeks for only $15.41 and expect it to be there safely when I return.'

2008-11-11T16:04:00.002+08:00

A GOOD GOLF WIFE!

An elderly couple were having dinner one evening when the husband reachedacross the table, took his wife's hand in his and said, 'Martha, soon wewill be married 50 years, and there's something I have to know. In all ofthese 50 years, have you ever been unfaithful to me?

Martha replied, Well Henry, I have to be honest with you. Yes, I've beenunfaithful to you three times during these 50 years, but always for a good reason.

Henry was obviously hurt by his wife's confession, but said, I never suspected. Can you tell me what you mean by good reasons?

Martha said, The first time was shortly after we were married, and wewere about to lose our little house because we couldn't pay the mortgage. Do you remember that one evening I went to see the banker and the next dayhe notified you that the loan would be extended?

Henry recalled the visit to the banker and said, 'I can forgive you forthat. You saved our home, but what about the second time?

Martha asked, And do you remember when you were so sick, but we didn't have the money to pay for the heart surgery you needed? Well, I went to see your doctor one night and, if you recall, he did the surgery at no charge.

I recall that, said Henry. 'And you did it to save my life, so of courseI can forgive you for that. Now tell me about the third time.

Alright, Martha said. So do you remember when you ran for president of your golf club, and you needed 73 more votes?

hahaha!!! ah wells...

2008-11-07T19:49:00.003+08:00

Alright let me start off with a story a GHOST story…..

Prior to joining a new company, this guy A was working at boat quay area.
In those tall building offices like UOB and such. His office was quite high up the level at least 30 and above. Normally he will have to stay back for OT and in the evening, all the lifts will be stopped due to security reasons. Whenever he wanted to leave, he will need to call the old security uncle to activate the lift from ground floor to his level. Then the uncle will send the lift up..

After sometime, he left the company and joined another place where his office also very high up in the building. Hence if do OT, also need to call uncle to send lift up. Then it came the day that he's working OT for the first time at the new place. He stayed back till 12 plus am and when he's about to leave, he called the security uncle to send the lift up. After packing up he went to the lobby to wait for the lift. He waited and waited. 10 mins passed, Lift not up. He waited for another 10 mins and call the security uncle. S denotes security here.

A: Hello Uncle ah, have you send the lift up?

S: Yeah sent liao.

A: No leh I been waiting for 20 mins liao leh

S: No meh? okie okie I send again.

Another 5 minutes went by. No lift came up. The guy got worried. He's the last person to leave and there's no one around. He called the uncle on his handphone again.

A: Er... Uncle ah, you sure you sent the lift up?

S: Yeah I sent it up twice liao leh.

A: But I saw the lifts all on the first floor leh!

S: Aiyoh. Nevermind. I take the lift up and look for you.

Again, A waited. 5 minutes passed but none of the lift are moving. Then suddenly, his hp ring. The uncle voice was on the other side of the line sounding very weird.

S: Where are you? I am here. But I cannot find you.

All this while A was staring at the display of the lifts. All at level 1..... and the uncle is here.... shit something is not right.

A straight away chiong to the stairs and dashed down the building...When he reached ground level, he chiong to the security counter and he found out that....

.....

......

.....

He had actually called the old security uncle in the building of his ex company and not the security uncle of his new office -_- He work till seh liao and was damn blur. Feeling very pai seh, he also never call back to explain to the security uncle from the building of his ex company.

Blur fellow and poor uncle. He must be the one who actually freaked out going all the way up and saw no one there.

Moral of the story - dun work till becoming like sotong.... Detress by DANCING............. :-) errr....-_-'''

Ok the end of story…hahaha!!! the first time I read the story when I reached the end I wanted to burst out laughing but can’t cuz in the office if suddenly burst out laughing ppl will think I am crazy..ok lah the story may not be as funny to u as it is to me..i can’t help it if I laugh that easily..hahahaha!!!! wat to do..bored in office..

Neways I am blogging now in office again..hmmmmmm…it’s the time of the month again..hahaha!! which means horrible cramps..ahhhhhh..am taking half day off today..

Celebrated my sister’s bday ytd at royal plaza hotel’s carousel (not sure if it’s the correct spelling) the food was awesome, tasted food that I have never tried before..hahaha!! oh man and the desserts..they all look sooooo prettttty..they taste good too. It was a good time spent with my whole family cuz everyone was there including my father.. after dinner or rather during dinner we took a number of photos and cranky photos..we continued taking photos in the lobby too..haha!! I dun haf the photos now or I’ll post some of it up..heh..i think God for my family..it may not be the best family to live it but I thank God from the bottom of my heart.. I know you’re still molding me in this area of my life.

I think God is really awesome…
the past few weeks or rather month wasn't a smooth sailing one for me..it was filled with alot of down moments for me..it was the worse period of my life..up till now at least..i won't elaborate further. I truly thank God for sending ppl into my life to speak to you hahaha!!! esp to my shepherd..thankew so much...hee:)
and also i thank God for monday night at wam night..thank you God for ur assurance..

2008-10-29T16:46:00.003+08:00

alrite..am blogging in office now..

ok first of all i would like to address an issue..
To this particular person: i am not angry at the fact at wat u did, am angry at the fact that why do u even bother asking me for my opinion when u dun even care abt how i feel. if u won't even care abt wat i say den just dun bother asking and just do it.

secondly if am really pissed at you, you wouldn't even have heard me talking to you..and from what i can see i dun see the point of why u're pissed and am always the one trying to initiate a conversation till am tired to even try anymore. and though i see an improvement now, this friendship wouldn't go to the next level, cuz i know there'll be some barriers. I tried my best but it takes 2 hands to clap

thirdly by correcting ur english on msn or whatever is not insulting you, but its helping u..how about u try seeing from my view, and also aft reading the steps of how to use the software, the language is hmmmm...i tried to correct u but u say it din matter.

and lastly, this issue came at the wrong time, u do not know wat was going on with me at home and stuff, am sorry if i vented my anger on you, my life is not a bed of roses, i may look like i have no problems in the world or even if the world came crashing down i won't even care, i have many things going on and i ain't got the time or strength to deal with u. though i may sound like am making up some excuses for the way i behave but am sorry wat i say is all true.

alrite am stopping now..i dun care if u get to read this i've said wat i needed to and i've done wat i need to.

2008-10-05T01:54:00.002+08:00

i just came back not too long ago from my favourite Singer's concert A*MEI!!!
She totally rocks man, this is the 2nd time i went for this star tour concert, and man this one was better, she gets better and better with each concert she does here. She haven't finished her tour and now she made a trip back here to do the concert again. Of cuz there are quite a number of changes to the program and the songs..my most favourite part of the concert was when she sang her songs that is not the *zhu da ge* which are like not the signature songs of her albums it was simple and from there u can hear the power of her voice, and the other fav part of the concert was the encore portion, it was just so much fun. She interacts with the audience alot and she tease us too..hahaha!!! ooh...there was this part when she was abt the sing a slow song, she was already singing the first word or so when a person just shouted her name(the person zhao xia) she bursted out laughing but still continued to sing..hahaha!!! one thing i like abt besides the singing and the stage presence is she listens to the audience...there are some artiste who when they hold concerts they dun really take note of what the audience is shouting to them and there isn't much interaction with them..yea..

neways sorry for boring u guys with nothing but praise for A*MEI's concert.. but its really AWESOME!!

oh and let me tell u guys one stupid and blur thing i did, i left my phone in the office on friday, thank God my fren was still ard and she saw my phone and helped me take it home and pass it to me today..hee=)

2008-10-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

Wahahaha!!! i've been a lazy blogger..i blog like once in a while or rather when i feel like it, which isn't very often..Been rather busy lately and i've been rather weak the past few weeks of so with my cough taking at least 2 weeks to recover and i've not exactly fully recovered yet..

ok the most happening thing tat happened to me 2 or 3 weeks ago is that i played mahjong and went prawning on fine night with wu gui, lilian, aunty giok and my brother (hahaha!!! poor brother was my slave that night) my bro had to help take out all the prawns tat was caught.. and i suck at prawning, i din catch a single thing, i was so frustrated tat night, but i had fun any o how..

Work been's alright soooo..hahaha!!! finally met everyone in my dept..hehehe

hahaha!!! let me share some lame joke:

The phone bill was exceptionally high and

the man of the house called a family meeting...

On a Saturday morning...

after breakfast...

Dad:

People this is unacceptable.

You have to limit the use of the phone.

I do not use this phone, I use the one at the office.

Mum:

Same here,

I hardly use this home telephone as I use my work telephone.

Son:

Me too,

I never use the home phone.

I always use my company mobile.

Maid:

So - what is the problem?

We all use our work telephones !!!!!

2008-09-14T13:23:00.002+08:00

alright i have not blogged for quite some time..
well...the good news is i got a job le, the sad thing is its in jurong..ahaha!!! oh wells i dun mind the distance. i started work on the 3rd of september, what can i say man, but to say that am really blessed, not only my pay is good but the ppl there are nice, and its a really nice environment to work in, not only there i have one of my good fren from poly working there too and also other friends from poly there too..heee=) so with the help of them i am able to fit in really nicely...hahaha!!!

Went with my department girls (there are only 4 of us, the rest of the dept are all guys) to botak jones on tues..hahaha!!! it was fantastic man..hehe..oh and we went for a department get together on friday, i had so much fun with them, we laughed so much...hehe..

oh and let me show u one of the many conservations on email me, lilian and jh have..( start from the bottom )

From: Lilian Chen Jinli
Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 3:35 PMTo: Amelia Tay; Chung Jiahuey
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

LOL!!!! Abish..

-----Original Message-----From: Amelia Tay
Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 3:33 PMTo: Lilian Chen Jinli; Chung Jiahuey
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

Chill man…its convos like this tat make ur life colorful…

From: Lilian Chen Jinli
Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 3:28 PMTo: Amelia Tay; Chung Jiahuey
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

ROARRRRR....
You 2!!!! Angryyy

-----Original Message-----From: Amelia Tay Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 3:23 PMTo: Chung Jiahuey; Lilian Chen Jinli
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

Omg this is like so funny I think I shld blog this convo on me blog..LMAO!!!

From: Chung Jiahuey Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 3:18 PMTo: Amelia Tay; Lilian Chen Jinli
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

JL, rmb to breathe in n out when u see this okay? cool down… hahaha!

From: Amelia Tay Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 3:13 PMTo: Chung Jiahuey; Lilian Chen Jinli
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

OMG!!! YOU TAKE UR BRAIN GO MAKE JUICE UNTIL NO JUICE?!?!?!?!?!? OMG ARE U LIKE CRAZY!!!!

From: Chung Jiahuey Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 3:06 PMTo: Lilian Chen Jinli; Amelia Tay
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

No brain juices!

From: Lilian Chen Jinli Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 2:59 PMTo: Amelia Tay; Chung Jiahuey
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

NOT AS IN TT BRAIN DEAD!!!

-----Original Message-----From: Amelia Tay Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 2:58 PMTo: Lilian Chen Jinli; Chung JiahueySubject:
RE: next date with DINNER

OMG!!! Ur brain died?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?......

From: Lilian Chen Jinli Sent: Thursday, September 04, 2008 2:56 PMTo: Chung Jiahuey; Amelia Tay
Subject: RE: next date with DINNER

Braindead le..
Kept drafting emails...
All to big boss... ROARRR

this is one of the crazy convos we have...hehe
oh yah we celebrated Jiaqi's bday last sat..it was so much fun and it was good to meet up with old frens like shuguan, xinni and hsinhui..and of cuz meetin new frens such as jo and weishan..hee.. we drank so much, but the zhong tian is that i wasn't drunk or tipsy..hehe..but still i had company for the walk home, thankew jiaqi, hayden and weishan..

went jooseng ktv with daixuan, huiying, kaiwen, simon, peter, jason and kaixiang ytd...hahaha!!! they all can sing...hehe daixuan and huiying even did harmonizing.. oh man it was like wow, u can do tat in ktv tooo..hehe..it was so much fun to go out with all of them..hee=)

2008-08-20T00:13:00.002+08:00

I have an interview tmr..i really pray hard i get the job man..the location is one of the most ideal place..i have a direct bus there and its near nexus!

i went cycling last week with Daixuan...hee=) it felt great to cycle, esp when u do it with a good friend. on of my favouritest place to go to when am cycling is the jetty in ecp..staying there looking out on the sea and seeing all the ships talking and thinking... it may not have the best view in the world, but its like the best view to me in Singapore.

went to the job fair on sunday with Siewgiok...hahaha!! thankew for coming with me though u already have a job..it was a good time spent with her, and my job fair experience wasn't that good, dun haf much things for me..=(

After the job fair and hanging out with Siewgiok i wanted to go home, but i made a last minute decision to go for the Hope carnival, i managed to catch the 2nd half of the HPL, well, its kinda sad yg's team din win...
to me winning or losing doesn't matter, its the gaining of experience and doing my best is all that counts...

oooooooohhhhhhh....met up with the girls today...hehe its been long since i met them man!!! hahaha!!! we ate at ashtons, aft waiting so long i finally get to try the food there, delicious...wooo!! i bought a pair of shoes today..hehehe

2008-08-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

whassup..been looking for a job, no luck so far..
its so demoralising..
its annoyong cuz most companies want ppl with experience but i feel like telling them, if u want ppl with experience den u dun give me a chance to work and gain experience how am i suppose to gain experience..argh..

went to ubin last sunday with Ywam, it was so much fun. the cycling was tiring but enjoyable. My favourite part was cycling down the slope woohoo!!! we had a time of sharing when we reached the beach.. though it was hot but it was a time i treasure alot.. hee

it was our nation's bday ytd..celebrated it with serving and after going to my uncle's house. it's been quite some time since i watched the parade.. can't remb when was the last time i watched it..a few years back i guess.. i din really enjoy the parade, but i got to spend some time with my relatives =)

2008-07-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

I went back to school today to take my cert..hahaha..met WW uo for lunch..hehe so happy, so long never eat in school le, after eating we went to buy bubble tea in south canteen which is at the other end of school and i bumped into carmen..heeeeee=). Den we went to my favouritest place to buy stuff, the college bookstore and i bumped into my college bookstore friend, i call her that cuz i dunno her name, but will always talk when we see each other, weird huh..
hahaha so weird hearing ppl call ww miss Ching..hahaha!!!
oh wells aft parting with WW i left the school and went on to aaron's hse to give him tution.. aft teaching him i played his PS2's dynasty warriors..hahaha much more difficult to play den the PSP version..ahahaha

went to meet me mama at a later time, we went to watch Red Cliff..woohoo!! the show rocks man if you're into the war kind shows, can't wait for part 2 to come out..
hahaha...

2008-07-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

a good fren of mine is leaving the island tmr for australia to study...=( i'll really miss her loads though she drives me crazy sometimes hahah!! dunno if she'll read this post but still take care of yourself well!! shucks i'll really miss her..she has been a fren who has stood by me through my worse of times till now, one i can count on. the thought of her leaving makes me really sad..
going to the airport tmr to send her off, i hope i won't get too emotional tmr..

meeting quite a number of ppl tmr, meeting miss sotong and bofc hahaha!! guess who.. looking forward to spending time with them, oh aft tat going to nexus to get something and den off to the airport..gonna be rather happening tmr

met up with ruiz today hee=) i have to remb what am supposed to do..
we went to ikea, ate swedish meatballs, pasta, soup and chicken leg. yums..

2008-06-25T14:27:00.002+08:00

i haven't been really faithful in updating my blog, well, i shall now update.
been nuahing at home recently and looking for a job. man looking for a job can be tiring and demoralizing, been sending out loads of resumes..oh wells finally am going for an interview tmr at recruit express..hmmm..i hope i can get something decent..i really need a job!! Help me!! Please make this work..

alright camp is over, i know i'm like a few weeks late, but its better late den never eh..yeas!! Oasis, is the first camp tat i could stay throughout..woohooo!! think the last one tat i stayed throughout was like probably abt 2 years ago..
it felt good to stay throughout camp, cuz its refreshing and i get to spend more time with the ppl around me..God has spoken much, thank you God for being here throughout all these times especially during my down times. I need you to work in my life.
this paragraph is not sufficient to wrap up my whole experience in camp, there is so much more to say but i just dunno where to start, so i'll just leave it here for now.

one thing sharlene said last week in P&W: the world doesnt need more money, the world doesnt need more oil, the world doesnt need more food. God, what the world really needs is Your forgiveness.
yes lord that is what the world need, that is what i need.

the feelings of hatred builds up in me
the feelings of love slowly fades away
is it that difficult to stop?

2008-05-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

alright amelia's been lazy again..
hahaha!! ok many happenings this week, oh yea i bumped into weiling last sat in Bishan, hehe was so happy to bump into her and talked with her, oh man i really miss her and susilawati angkasa(dunno correct spelling anot lah) my first 2 shepherds..

*am gonna be rather random now*

oh we had a class gathering last thurs(1st May) at east coast park, we had BBQ, and the pit was darn far, had to walk for at least 10mins before we reach it..haha!! i had fun there, bbqing under the moonlight with my classmates..yea am looking forward to the many gatherings we're gonna have

just this thurs i met up with my secondary school friends, i miss them soooo much, too bad jq wasn't there, heee and shima and shalala as well, it would have been crazier with them ard, but still it was a great night out with them and a great time of catching up.

think for the next few weeks is gonna be crazy, so many ppl to meet hahaha!! woohoo!! man!! this feels great man!

oh i argued with my brother today ahaha abt something hais oh wells..
oh am super happy today too!! lalalala

2008-04-28T00:38:00.002+08:00

yay!! the old blogskin is no more!! hehe
no more pictureless skin

yea..am now officailly jobless, which means am free till i find another job, so feel free to like date me now, or i'll be bored at home besides doing work...hehe..

oh yah my neighbor tat lives 2 floors above me is so horrible, they threw rotten eggs down and hit our clothes tat we hang out to dry, argh, now we haf to wash them again, last time they threw their cigarette butts out their windows, and will often land on my aircon condenser, which will den pollute my room with the smoke. Dang this is the first time i met such horrible neighbors, i was so tempted just now to storm up to their apartment and scold them. when i think abt it i get fuming mad. *calm down calm down*

2008-04-27T09:53:00.002+08:00

Footprints in the sand

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way
Than I heard you say

I promise you I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I Been so afraid
And just when I
I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
Thats when I heard you say

When I'm weary Lord,
I know you've been there
And I can feel you when you say

2008-04-05T23:55:00.002+08:00

i shall hunt for another blogskin soon..yea..the picture is gone!!! hahaha
oh wells work so far has been good, but am kinda bored, nth much to do in the offie, i have to keep on asking the perm staff for things to do..hahaha!!! oh wells..

neways my grauation ceremony is on the 23rd of May..hahaha!!! Gosh how time flies man..i have already graduated from NYP!!! i'll miss the times of going for tuts and lects, the lousy comps in school, the crowded canteens with not so nice food, of cuz going to college bookstore to buy sweets. hahaha!! bitter sweet memories of school.

oh its jia's bday today!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U !!! and to all the ppl who come to this earth in apr..

oh i served at foh today or rather ytd alone for many reasons, hehe i had fun doing alone. i kinda enjoy doing alone..oh my in the past if i had to do alone, i'll be very panicky and get super nervous..hee=) yay!!

Shirls talked abt stress today, ride the tandem bike with God let he be in control guiding us where are we going, all we have to do is just pedal.

so many things i need to grow in..jia you!

oh i went to eat with ah girl and ldx at some place if u order set meal, you have free flow of drinks and ice-cream, the food not that bad, and of cuz the most impt thing is the people that u're with. Spent a great time with those 2 girls, Miss Dumb and Miss Dumberest..hahaha!! now miss dumb has found someone to laugh at..hahaha!! they are really great ppl to hang out with and talk to..hee we shld hang out more!!

2008-03-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

oh yah we had EC's farewell too, he's moving on to the tertiary service..i'll miss this brother...use ur giftings there and bless the tertiary team man!!

here are some pictures from the minops outing at sentosa.

ywam

us throwing daixuan in the water( she din put in much of a fight)
shuz coming out from the water aft being thrown in ( she tried to pull me in too but i managed to escape
us burying Gwen
ambassador of 7eleven's big gulp and super big gulp
Ywam girls
minops girls with EC
Ywam 1
minops!!

2008-03-30T18:01:00.005+08:00

i think i am a lazy blogger...hahaha oh wells i Am lazy!!

hahaha!! neways the past 2 weeks have been rather happening hee=)
let me describe the events one by one..hahaha

1st event: on 22nd march aft easter service i rushed back home to prepare for my 21st birthday party at home with some of my relatives and friends..it was a fun filled party..yea i felt really xin fu and happy. feeling of love from frens and family, where all gather at one place just to celebrate my bday. hee=) i shall attempt to insert some pics here
--->

aight for now i'll just put these photos for now hee=) pictures speak louder den words huh..

event number 2: bball cg on monday 24 march..hee had a great time of playing basketball with the grp, it was super fun..hahaha!! never run so much in so long..hee=) last game of the night we played full court..man it was tiring but much better den playing half court.. did i mention i LOVE bball!!

event number 3: ywam DMM on 26 march..it was a night of great learning and time spent with the group..=) i need to be consistent

event number 4: amelia's bday bash at east coast on 27 march..ruiz and the rest of the grp surprised me. it really was a pleasant surprise from all of u, really really appreciate it alot..heart melt melt..no words can describe how i felt that day =) and God is really God to me.. He cleared the sky for me and displayed the stars out, i've never seen so many stars in the Singapore Sky before, the image is forever imprinted in my heart.

Event number 5: i started work at cpg as a admin assistant on friday 28 march..ahahaha!! yea and am ending work on the 27 of apr

event number 6: minops cg at sentosa today..we celebrated shan's bday today hahaha!!! hmmm..i think it was fun..so long since i went to sentosa..played monkey, volleyball and some of us threw( i dun think it was throwing it was more like putting them into the water) shuz and daixuan into in water.. we attempted to throw dua gu into the water but we buried her in the sand instead..hahaha

2008-03-09T00:07:00.001+08:00

yay!!! exam's over!! hahaha though it like ended on tues..i should stop procrastinating to blog..
really thank God for the last 2 papers of my exams, the papers were easier den expected especially the last paper. The first 2 papers were the killers, though i prefered the first 2 modules the most. ahh...i was damn pissed with myself for my QM paper, my mind was a blank and this has never happened before and i lost many points. shucks it would be a miracle if i can get a decent score for the module. oh wells, doesn't matter its over and am thankful for it.

Had class chalet after our last paper, but i din go on the first night, first time in my 1 and a half years of being in the class i see us gathered in the same place having fun together and eating together..damn fun lah!! hahaha oh we had BBQ, we had extra guests to our bbq hahaha!!! 3 cats -_-''' shld have more of this kind of gathering man, finally my class feels like a class..if u noe what i mean. =) oh and we went night cycling..hahaha!! we cycled from the chalet to changi Village, and yes i saw many you know wats..i was actully quite disgusted, but i've got to admit they got quite nice figures.. the cycling was fun and tiring, cycled for about 4 hours.. my legs were like wobbly aft tat..hahaha!!

oh carol and ah lin came to my hse on friday, hehe..watched movie called yours mine and ours, funny show and the kids are like cute..hehe it was a day of becoming couch potatoes..hahaha!! it was great to catch up with them after so long..
alright i shall end now and go eat my dinner..i shall update again soon i hope..

oh and as crazy as it sound am gonna go back to school on tues to pack the locker with WC and go have our last meal in nyp MCD..we are crazy right??

2008-02-24T09:29:00.002+08:00

Entre Day is finally over and so are all our projects. Now am left with the last lap of my semester and poly life. Exams had never been so stressful before this. i shall be term a mugger until the exams are over..
Studying in school with my study partners had been fun..hahaha!! and i found out some webby to play mahjong online with people, though the feeling is not the same as playing the real thing but its the next best thing to it..hehe
aahhhh..am having pimple outbreak, think its due to the stress and heatyness..oh wells

Went to Shima's 21st bday party ytd, the party was good, can really see that her family and frens love her alot by the presentations put up for her..hee=)

2008-02-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

*blows the dust away from the blog* hehe:)
haven't been blogging all this while.

Went to watch Sweeny Todd today and had dinner tgt with the Gang, Chinhong, Renxin, Vani and Becky. i had fun hanging out with them, but the movie was a let down, i was expecting much, hais saded. hahaha!!
Had crmp presentation today, i was the first speaker, haha!! overall it was ok, i stumbled abit here and there.
hmmm lets see, things are getting better, it kinda helps when i open up my eyes more and learning to be in their shoes. =) another bigger challenge lies ahead though..how will i overcome it.

in last sat's service, Jasmine preached abt family, when i heard wat she was saying abt it, in my mind i was thinking abt my family..esp abt the level of satisfaction, it really got me thinking there.

2008-01-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalalala...
my eye is killing me, i've been feeling pain in my left eye since ytd, and i still don't have any idea what is causing the pain..ahhh!!! in the later part of tutorial today my vision went kinda blury, i couldn't really open my eyes.

neways hahaha!!! my tchers are so good to us, most of our project deadlines are being push back by a week. which is kinda good for us since we have 2 deadlines to meet next week and both are not exactly complete yet. phew..

school's been boring this past week or so..so many classes were cancelled as well.

2008-01-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

God Loves Ugly

You said that I wasn't pretty
so I just believed you
You said that I wasn't special
so I lived that way
with critical gazes and brutal amazement
at how my reflection could be so imperfect
with all of my blemishes
how could somebody want me

But God loves ugly
He doesn't see the way I see
oh, God takes ugly
and turns it into something that is beautiful
apparently I'm beautiful
cause You love me

I tried to clean up the outside
all shiny and new
worked overtime to thin up and look right
but inside I knew
that deep in the bottom were secrets I thought I could try to ignore
old ghosts in my corridors never get tired of haunting the past that's in me

help me believe why you love me
when I know you see
you see everything
help me believe why you love me
when I know you see inside and you still say I'm beautiful
you're telling me I'm beautiful
you're screaming out, so beautiful
and I'm finding out I'm beautiful
you're making me so beautiful
and I can see I'm beautiful
'cause you love me

2008-01-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

met up with Ruiz today, ate at S11, we both had suan la mian. yea its been long sia, God knows how long man. It was a good break away time for me, even though it was a short time spent, but i still appreciate the time. =)

oh bumped into many people today as well. Bumped into noraini and Katini in Delifrance, they were working and waved at me, hahaha!! i was wondering who that person is..hahaha!!! talked with them for awhile, den i bumped into fangwei and huiyang soon mark and paul came along too, chatted with them, when a familiar person came by carrying a child, it was miss Georgie, gosh it has been years since i last saw her man, lost contact with her since poly started, and boy was i happy to see her, chatted for a bit. Must ask her out for lunch soon tgt with baoping and ah lin.. i remember how we use to go to reach almost everyday in primary and secondary school, the times we'll talk and talk and talk with miss Georgie, Christy and Jessie. Those were the days.

i have decided i need to improve more in my keyb mixing skills, i am not contented with what level i am at now.. listen listen listen listen...

my opinions don't matter to you, don't they???
you say keep giving ideas, but you never consider mine, but u ask me to consider yours when they don't make sense at all... what's the point of asking what i think and you don't give a d*** when i say it out..
I see no improvement at all.. why should i bother..
i wanna be heard, i wanna have a say
This resentment in me, will explode one day.
i can't stand it...argh!
why should i listen to you?
what u say, feel or think doesn't matter to me

if you notice you'll know.

2008-01-06T15:13:00.000+08:00

school has started for 3 days le...oh wells..seems like the 2 weeks break plus plus, isn't enough to rest..hahaa!! been busy during the break with many things.

neways highlights in the 2 weeks break was the minops pj party on the 26th of dec, i had so much fun spending time with them, i miss these moments with them..and another highlight was the first cg of the year 2008, it was a cooking cg, oooh and for your information the cooking wasn't done by the ladies, it was by the guys!! haha!! master chef of the day was QianJin..it was a memorable time spent with ywam1..

it is not how it seems to be, dun claim to understand when u dun, and dun make assumptions..
argh..the grp is not as it used to be, really feel like seperating myself from them..i dun feel like myself..if i was given another chance, i wouldn't make the same decision again..as harsh as it seems, that's how i feel.

i feel very random now, so this post will be random too..

i have very mixed feelings about graduating, i feel happy yet at the same time i feel lost.. tell me what to do..

i had a disoriented feeling ytd, dunno why, prephas cuz it was here

2007-12-19T20:31:00.000+08:00

had a fieldtrip today to Bakerzin and City Satay/food. Was made to be the emcee for the bus ride from Bakerzin to city satay, i almost died, paiseh and not prepared..sang abit also..think i face kinda turned red. but all in all it was good.
the talk the bosses gave was interesting and funny..hahah!! learned a few things there, so it was a good trip all in all.

watched Alvin and the Chipmunks just now with ChinHong, YiSong and SiewGiok, it was good...hahaha!! enjoyed myself..Simon, Alvin and Theodore are so adorable..hahaha!!

2007-12-16T12:08:00.000+08:00

was updating halfway den there was a powertrip thank God blogger has the automatic save ur drafts function, or else i'll haf to re type again.

its the start of term break now..but it'll be 2 weeks of doing projects, will be seeing my team mates almost everyday..hahaha

X29- youth camp

sad as i am tat i couldn't go for the full camp, but still i learnt alot..

i realised how inadequate i am...

had crmp test last tues, i took set A, i shldn't haf changed my place, set B has all the qns which i studied for argh..
had quality management test on thurs, hahaha!! i literally laughed when i saw the paper, almost everything i studied came out, was super happy!! totally opposite from the crmp paper..hee=)

oh man the svc ytd was awesome, the drama was great..yea..my bro came too..really want to reconnect him again. we can do it.

2007-11-22T19:38:00.000+08:00

school has started..am now towards the end of my 2nd week of the semester..
the projects are slowly piling up.. ICAs are coming soon..
really want to do well this semester..den further my studies in university..

dun u feel sometimes mothers can make u feel so happy, and also make u very angry too??
if u do den am not alone..
haha!!

so many things i wanna say, but i dunno how to..so think i'll end here

2007-11-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

the blog is collecting dust yet again...
and here am i again to clean the dust away..hahaha!! -_-'''
highlights for last week are i ended work on tues, actually suppose to be the previous friday, but got extended..oh wells i lazy to explain why, neways on my last day, i was super happy the whole day, was grinning ear to ear, when the clock striked 545pm i wanted to jump up and shout hooray! but can't. so i just left aft taking fotos and rushed off to celebrate my sister's bday. went to amk to eat..yummy, the food's not bad.
And now the most exciting part of my week...I WENT FOR ZHANG HUI MEI"S (a.k.a A*MEI) CONCERT!!!!!! she is so damn good sia, her voice is superb..she sang for 3 hours plus and her voice never zhao sia(out of tune). the last hour or so of the concert, she did unplug, and from there you can hear the power of her voice..and i can say that she is getting better and better..if u think that her voice is powerful in her album, wait till u hear her sing live, it's even more powerful..she's more interactive this time, her wu tai mei li is just wow, even when she's singing slow songs the presence is there. you also can sense that she sings with feelings.. ok i shall stop here or i'll keep going on and on and on

am starting school tmr..mixed feeling happy and yet sian..hahaha oh wells

2007-10-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

jh complained that the blog is rotting..hahaha!! well it is..been rather lazy and busy lately.
well!! its my last week of working the coming week..am looking forward to it sia..1 week break den the start of school le..kinda looking forward to the start of school. cuz it means i can hang out with my frens yay!! =) oh!! and ian helped me mod my psp!! ahaha!! now i can do so much more with it..hahaha!!
neways i did sound today!! yay!! lee told me aft svc dat the toms sounded good and its the kind of sound that he wanted to hear..i was so encouraged to hear that. Thank You God, for sustaining me today. Seriously, i was feeling really lousy today i mean physically, my throat felt funny, and my head hurt in 2nd svc, i was able to tahan till the end of 2nd svc. if God din work i dun think i would be able to deliver the best today. during the gathering b4 the start of pm, Dennis shared sth abt excitment, den i asked myself am i excited today or even the many weeks i serve. I guess i have to ask myself this constantly and do a constant healthchecks with God.

met up my xiao wu guis on friday night, yea i rushed to prac, den to meet them, den back to prac again..hahaha!! yea i rushed like mad..but am glad to meet them, boy how much i miss them and laughing at all the stewpid things we do and catching up with one another..hahaha!! thankew ladies for accomodating with my requests that night and for understanding..=)

2007-10-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

ok the blog has been rotting for quite some time..its been a week since i came back from Taiwan narunwan(spelt sth liddat i think, wait i go check the picture opps its naruwan)..hehe..neways i really enjoyed my trip there, on the day of my departure from there i kinda looked forward to coming back to s'pore cuz i miss my frens, the food, my bed and the comfort of my home. but i really miss that place...on the day i came back to s'pore the first thing i felt was wah sei super hot sia..seriously its like living in a suana..hahaha!!!

oh wells..its good to be back seeing the faces of ppl i care abt, ppl who i enjoy being with, ppl i love..attending svc, learning the word and serving. man it feels good.

the scenery in Taiwan is mag...i was in awe..
wow!!! that's not even enough the describe it..mayb cuz i've never seen the swiss alps..hahaa

2007-09-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

first time in the entire period after i got my new com did i ever not use it for 5 days straight..i am serious i did not on it since monday till now..omg hahaha oh wells..
i shall update u on my week thus far..
well work's been getting better but stress level's kinda getting higher..hahaha gotta rush many things or else the other operations in the company cannot run..so yea u imagine the pressure, now the future month or so working there will test me in my typing speed, seeing, sorting and making payments speed..challenging, cuz scared will be mistakes..thank God am oni a temp staff.. oh the ppl there are much friendlier now, got more ppl to talk to. they all call me ah mei(4)..haha!! oni my 2nd week at work and i need to work OT twice..haiz..

been feeling rather tired lately esp this week, still not very used to this timing i guess and to the constant look at the papers and computer.. and i think i may fall sick soon (my feelings are usually wrong). oh gosh i pray i dun get sick now, i wanna go Taiwan with a healthy body, to enjoy the trip out of S'pore..

i went with my mother to ding tai fung on wed...hmmm the xiao long pao quite nice, the fried prawn pancake thingy also quite nice oh the suan la tang also nice and i got cheated by the name i tot its spicy but its not...hahaha..the next place i wanna try the food at is botak jones which am going tmr or rather ltr for lunch if nothing goes wrong..hehe

met with my friends from mayer today, had a great time with them and i really miss them loads, sad that i can't see the whole bunch of them..haiz how i miss monster and disturbing her, how i miss tricking ah lotte and seeing her blur face, how i miss talking with ah dawn in the midst of work and whenever, how i miss disturbing zhou tai with her t shirt quote 'careful, i had a bowl of bitchy for breakfast', how i miss ah xiang's craziness, how i miss talking crap with shi fu, how i miss walking to spareparts to talk with haizan, how i miss the times of talking with mu mu and the rare times that he can drive the van home, how i miss the times of singing one nite in beijing with an-nee, how i miss talking with auntie nonsense, how i miss the times of lunch with them, the times of taking the shuttle bus with them, the times of train rides home with them and surprisingly how i miss the times of going into miss chong's office, how i miss the kboxing with them..
one thing really agree with zhou tai after we left mayer the things we miss there most is not the work or anything but rather the ppl, cuz at mayer the ppl we worked with feel like kinda family to us..we work and play tgt..

and i do miss going out with ppl like ruiz, shan, jess, yenli, zyann, ruth and the whole bunch of my ex cg mates, jqian(really miss going out and talking with her)..

oh my mum blessed me recently with 2 pairs of tracee shoes..hee=) so i have shoes that i feel comfortable in and it fits with my working attire..hee=)

2007-09-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

welll...work's been ok so far..but feel kinda alone in the company..am kinda like an alien in a foreign land..its quite a comfortable place to work in ahaha cool air con..but the travelling time's kinda long..hahaha!! Did checking, filing and payments today..got in their system today, its kinda same with mayer's hahaha..
i have been late the past 2 days..hais..i must wake up earlier, bathe faster or eat faster..hahaha

on the 2nd day of work i took leave and went for metamorphosis, its the dunno how many meta i went but each time is filled with a new experience, the joy of seeing so many new faces joining this family and seeing them learning much from it as well is indescriable. am so glad i took that important step and went for it..

who knows what i'll miss if i din...

1 more week to the release of results and 2 more weeks to taiwan!!! YES!!!

2007-09-03T17:46:00.000+08:00

hahaa amelia is no longer jobless, she is now employed..hehe..
starting work tmr..really hope the ppl there are nice..oh wells the employers is kinda understanding..so yea..i can go for meta..hahaha

This week's been quite a relaxing one for me..been nuahing at home, resting the body..well no more nuahing for me, time to earn some moooney and save for watever i'll need to buy. oh yah did i tell u, my mp3 died..very sad...am thinking of getting a new one..i'll still get samsung though..hee=)

Had a media gathering last friday, hahaha!! pure madness..Thankew Mel for booking us the place, Jia, aloy, Mel, Mila, Vic, Shijie, Melody, Huiying, Chicken Egg thankew to u guys for cooking for us..hahaha

2007-08-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

I Know Where I've Been- A song from HairSpray, my favourite song of the movie

There's a light
In the darkness
Though the night
Is black as my skin
There's a light
Burning bright
Showing me the way
But i know where i've been

There's a cry
In the distance
It's a voice
That comes from deep within
There's a cry
Asking why
I pray the answer's up ahead
'Cause i know where i've been

There's a road
We've been travelin'
Lost so many on the way
But the riches
Will be plenty
Worth the price
The price that had to pay

There's a dream
In the future
There's a struggle
That we have yet to win
And there's pride
In my heart
'Cause i know
Where i'm going( yes I do)
And i know where i've been

There's a road
We must travel
There's a promise
We must make
'Cause the riches
Will be plenty
Worth the risk
And chances that we take
There's a dream
In the future
There's a struggle
That we have yet to win
Use that pride
In our hearts
To lift us up
To tomorrow
'Cause just to sit still
Would be a sin

I know it, i know it
I know where i'm going

And lord knows i know..
Where i've been

Oh! When we win,
I'll give thanks to my god
'Cause i know where i've been

2007-08-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

random post...cuz am bored..

read from bottom to top

aHboy: *bonks*
aMe: *hits ah boy on the head with a hammer*
aHboy: omgomgomgomgomgomg! somebody call the doctor! *screams heristerically*
aMe: -_-'' split personality
aMe: amelia says boo, her other self says *ahhh* ^with the silly hand action^ hahaha!!

2007-08-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

met Carol, Mich and JQ today, really enjoyed myself today just talking with them at S11 and den at Coffeebean, aft coffeebean we went to the open space on the 3rd floor of J8 took fotos there and continued chatting with them sitting at the playgound there, haha!! Sliding down the slides, taking more photos, oh man, guess am gonna miss tat stupid girl ahaha!! gonna be away for 6mths, ahhh, the time i see her again will be aft i graduate i guess..i hope she doesn't read this..

sometimes i wonder, what's the significance of me being there. the feeling of being ignored is hurtful and sometimes i wonder if my presence is even known, its like why am i always the last person to know sth, the feeling of not being remembered. i dunno, i sometime do wonder wat am i doing there and does it really play a big part in the big picture, wat's the difference of me being there and not being there..i dunno..i really dun.

2007-08-24T11:25:00.000+08:00

wahahaha!! exams are finally over!!! yayness!!! my long awaited holidays is finally here.

Thanks to my study budds..for motivating me along the way and helping me in my revision..

Thanks to God for sustaining me through this period and keeping me healthly

For all the messages during the week thankew! It really kept me going alot and encouraged me loads.

Oh thanks to Lilian for the dedication too, though i din hear it live =D

Went to Suki Sushi ytd after exams to haf lunch, hahaha!!! man eat till full full..after tat went to Kbox..inside damn cold lar..sing till i shiok shiok.. (*what's wat with the language man hmmmm??) watched hairspray too, woah nice, i love all the singing. I want to play air hockey again.(i shall try to be gentler)..

Some photos:

2007-08-14T23:47:00.000+08:00

i wanted to study tonight, but no feel..omg at this rate i'll never study finish..how to memorise finish, i suck at memorising la..argh..if only i dun haf to memorise stuff...

neways feelings..hmmmmm..i dunno how to say but..it doesn't feel good...

alright i can't wat i wanted to type..so i'll just stop here first and continue on another day..
tmr will be another day of study..
i pray i will not be distracted..

2007-08-08T20:53:00.000+08:00

hmmmm...presentation that was supposed to be today was postponed to monday..when we heard it we were kinda furious..as in i tot i cld at least devote one full week to studying the 3 modules that's up for exams..argh...argh..sometimes i wonder why do they even bother to ask..

ok..after am finish doing the executive summary for the proj..i can finally stop worrying abt it for awhile...

a feeling so free is wat i want now..

as i was eating today i suddenly tot of this song...

I adore you
You're everything to me
you're all i long for
all i ever needed
lord i'm hungry for you
my saviour forever.....

2007-08-05T22:54:00.001+08:00

i practically stayed home and nuah today..hahaha 's been long since i last did that man..oh wells..this week's gonna be the last week of school before we proceed on to our study break. i've been looking forward to the exams, dun ask me why, i just do..perhaps its a sign for the end of the semester and to the start of the semestral break.

i've been thinking...

2007-08-04T21:15:00.000+08:00

If i dun update i think wu gui will kill me..hahaha

Yes i got my A*mei latest album le..hahaha happy, got it ytd after getting a call from the shop. my sister bought me A*mei's concert tix as well, double happiness..

my mum bought me the new Harry Potter book too..hahaha!! actually supposed to borrow from my cousin, but my mother dunno why bu shuang my cousin, decided not to borrow from her le and bought the book instead..-_-'''

oh and as of now for my projects am oni left with compensation, this week was super tiring, spend so much time in school, waking up early everyday, to do proj, dies..tired until got headache..
i almost died in all the presentations..except for whp, i kinda had fun..hahaha!! i was the tai chi master..hehe tai chi anyone??

oh and i had rashes, i went to the doctor within 2 weeks for 2 separate reasons..spent a total of $48..i shouldn't have waited so long to see the doctor..anyways my record for see the doctor is 2 times in 2 days crazy right.. one time each day..

ooh and Elvin came to NYP last week..omg he's so handsome...hahaha

the message today was barriers to trust, when i first heard it, for a moment there i was thinking of Customer Relations..hahaha!! ok..further into the message i reflected upon my life, and i realised indeed i dun trust people easily even those closer to me, somehow there's the barrier somewhere, guess am afraid to trust someone and in return get hurt, its like an unspoken fear.
den i realised trust is the most important thing in not only in my walk with God but also with friends. another thing i realised is how superficial are my friendships with people, my feelings and thoughts are never made known. why? pride? fear?

2007-07-30T09:39:00.000+08:00

i am very sleepy now....oh wells am blogging in school now..
oh wells having meeting now, but 2 members late, honestly i dunno wat are we gonna do..so here i am blogging and doing my own stuff..
updates of the past week or since i've stopped blogging..
well, projects had been hectic, have not been able to find time to go out with good frens except once or twice. hahaok i shall end here for now..i'll cont ltr

2007-07-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

my blog had been collecting dust for days..
hahaha!! oh wells..
time for some updates..i watched transformers and Harry Potter this week..
omg transformers is damn nice lar..i was so entertained by the movie, its quite funny also..hahaha..
Harry Potter was quite a let down, guess i kinda expected more.

celebrated Jacina's bday ytd too..went yuki yaki..hahaha totally enjoyed myself..each of us haf our preferred food there..i shall post up some photos another day..hehe
we took many crazy fotos as well..hahaha

oh went to watch dim sum dollies today..damn funny, its really worth the money sia..it was great, pam oei, selena tan and emma yong are great actress..wow..oh am not advertising for them..hahaha

2007-06-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

oh man i love playing daytona with friends, it kinda reminds me of my secondary and primary school days, the days of the old arcade in J8, the times that were spent there playing daytona, some jet skiing game and air hockey, and of cuz games to collect points to redeem something.. this has brought back fond memories of my childhood..hahaha!!

the day today was spent with, jia, aloy, bear, girl and chicken egg(who joined us at a later time).
the 5 of us excluding chicken egg went of Huili's school flim screening, i enjoyed wacthing vids made by the students. Some of them left quite an impression in my heart.

After the screening, had meeting, that's when chicken egg joined us, neways i guess i learnt quite a few things today, there's more den tat, i guess my perspective was widen today, the preparation involved is more den i imagined, thank God for you guys.

hahah!! going wataaa hse tmr. she's cooking yayness..

looking forward to this week:
catch up with ruiz
minops cg at sentosa
svc

2007-06-14T20:16:00.000+08:00

yea! am back from camp!!! it was really awesome! it was a great learning experience.
hahaha!! yea..though was busy going around making sure everything is going great, i enjoyed every moment of it. Serving with the team in this camp has brought much laughter and i thank each and everyone of you.

i need to learn to deny my rights

feeling kinda sleepy now, was sleeping after bathing, when i was rudely awaken by the return of my bro and sis, and by the barks of tyrant and qiqi..
yay!! qiqi is back!!! she went for a operation, she was at my sister's fren's hse..cuz cannot put her in my house when tyrant is around..
oh wells..conflict is happening again..

2007-06-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

hahaha!! yay!! my 2 weeks termbreak is finally here..
but like not 2 weeks break sia..the 2nd week chionging proj..so to be exact its 1 week break nia..
hahaa!! oh wells..at least i can enjoy one week.. yeah!! and i can go for CAMP!!!
totally looking forward to it sia..a time of meeting God, a time of fellowshipping..and a time w/o having to think abt projs..yeah..
oh wells..so many things to talk abt..but the blog is not so private to do it..haiz..i just hope dat i know to handle this situation well..it just sucks..haiz..

2007-06-05T10:48:00.000+08:00

its been quite a few days since i last updated..been busy..
Hopefully IB is done for now..or not i'll juz die
for now HR resume is done..am now left with CRM script and WHP..
I still dun understand why the school let us take WHP and still have exam for it..completely retarded dunno how they gonna test us sia..
haiz..stupid class politics..as per normal it doesn't feel like we're in a class..still dun understand why they dun like(bu shuang) us.. childish...
everything is juz so lame in my class..why why am i in this kind of class?!?

hopefully i can finish my crm script by tonight den tmr onwards i just focus on WHP..

everything is not the same anymore...

feelings, does it matter now..

2007-05-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

proposal is done.
now left CRM journal, CRM ICA2 script, IB ica 1 project and presentation, WHP report..(these are due the week before term break)
hahaha!! yea..crazy life of school is starting all over again..

neways thank God my sister helped me alittle in my proposal, if she din, i wouldn't have finished it so quickly..yep..
thank God for the service on sat, for sustaining me thruout the day.
one thing am very happy abt, was told by jia tat my mix has improved and recording sounded nice..yea..

Been feeling rather tired lately, chiong school work too much le..
i am determined to do better..
i know i can do better and much more.

2007-05-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

i seriously dun feel like doing my proposal which is like due on friday..argh..no motivation and inspiration to do..i just dunno how to form my sentences..the ideas juz comes once den no more..oh..man...
i think for the many weeks to come until the last week of school, i'll be like super busy, gonna have project meetings almost everyday in school..hahaha!! its gonna be crazy..

did i tell u i was like a zombie ytd, super blur and i almost slept in tut..oh man..whatever my frens and tcher said was a blur to me..

crap is wat am feeling now..argh..

2007-05-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

ok..i shall edit my templates aft i post this..
i felt so abandoned..oh wells..

neways i had napfa test ytd, i almost died..now am suffering the side effects of not exercising for so long and suddenly do napfa, muscle pain all over..oh man..

had a call on thurs from Jia to takeover for her today for sound as she's not feeling well, felt really nervous, was quite unsure if i cld do well this week, had to rush a school assignment that's due on monday and had napfa test, scared i will be too tired and cannot deliver my best, but thank God that my tcher postponed the deadline for the assignment to friday, so i din had to rush to finish the assignment on fri =)
had a heartattack this morn when i received one of my crew's msg tat he can't make it today as he had fever, Thank God mel was able to help me for 1st svc. phew..

2007-05-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder wat am i doing,
sometimes i wonder why do i even bother,
sometimes i wonder i just wonder...

2007-05-13T12:46:00.000+08:00

yay!! hee:) my new com has finally come, it came last tues...ultimate shuangness...hahaha!! dunn haf to use my bor's or sis's com again, no need to fight with them le..
yea..school's been going on for 2 weeks, going to 3 weeks le..time to chiong projects and ICAs le.. God help me to haf good time management skill and to be disciplined to do tutorials and assignments and not be distracted by the things around esp by TV and playing game
one thing am very happy about is that I can go for camp full time, usually oni can go part time oni.. yea!! I am so looking forward to the 2 weeks break which is in abt 1 mth and the semestral break in abt 3 mths time

i am determined to improve in skills, i shall not be stuck where I am now. Bringing the team another lvl higher.

The experience in ytd's Parent's day svc was awesome, many things i've learnt, how co-ordination between us and the drama ppl is impt.
Was so tired aft both svcs ytd, but i felt Joy among the tiredness i felt.

2007-05-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

today's only the second day of school yet much has happened..it sucks like seriously..
guess i reacted in the wrong way..would u have reacted differently?
I will not apologise for how i reacted.
But now am glad it has been resolved..
i'm not angry with u guys, i ignored u guys today cuz i felt it was the right thing to do at that point in time..
Now you've seen the other side of me (*the angry side i meant) hahahaha!!
I really feel very silly for crying in the bus..juz cldn't hold back any longer..

2007-05-02T10:59:00.000+08:00

school has started..oh man feels kinda good to start school..well..i have a new motivation to go to school now..hahahaha!! my lecture group got 1 french and 2 german guys, good looking guys..my goodness..so handsome..
first day of school's kinda good, one of my lecturer was involved in an accident, hopefully she'll be back nxt week.. We got Miss Diana Tan as our lecturer and tutor again..someone familiar in this sem..but why no martin hang..why why why?!? hahahhaa!!!

Went to sentosa ytd with my colleagues hahahaha!!! took quite alot of fotos.. played the luge, its fun lar and the skyride is so nice, the view from up above is juz fantastic..
guess i'll miss them quite alot, hahahaha!! ah boon's ninja turtle, zhou tai's careful! I had a bowl of bitchy for breakfast shirt..hahahaha!!! and all the squeezy rides out to lunch..

2007-04-23T20:55:00.000+08:00

yeah!! 4 more days to the end of attachment..can't believe its coming to an end, now i understand why adults always say studying is much better den working..am kinda excited about going back to school, seeing my friends again..yay!! this sem's timetable is kinda good as i dun haf school on wednesdays though each day is kinda packed with lessons, still am thankful for this timetable, dun haf any super early classes, yeah..means i can sleep more..haha!!

kinda amazed to how i've bonded with my colleauges even those not in my department, they are not really my colleauges but friends. heard from them i'm the noisest attachment student they had..hahahaha!!! oh wells.. guess they'll miss the noise i make aft am gone..

2007-04-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

You Are An ENTP

The Visionary
You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments.
You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

What's" Your Personality Type?

2007-04-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

i've known you for my whole life, but it feels like i dunno u at all..
we see each other everyday but do u really know me, understand me?

2007-04-09T12:47:00.000+08:00

am down with a throat infection..good time to stay home and rest..
guess haf been going out too much esp for the last 2 weeks..craziness

went to minds last sat with the group..had so much fun. and it was a good time spent with them..
svc was truly ministering..was at backstage, truly amazed and touched by God's love and his sacrifice. Went for my brother's svc on friday, well it was a simple svc, done very simply, i felt ministered.

2007-04-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

this week quite happening hahaha!! met up with many ppl..had one of the best birthday this year..hee..my colleagues are so sweet..oh wells..dinner at fish and co was good..
ok attachment is gonna end soon..yea..in abt 27 more days..den its back to school again..kinda looking forward to it..though there's gonna be many assignments..
hee:)

2007-03-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

received my results on monday..quite disappointing, but still am thankful, cuz at least i din fail, and i gave my best during this exam, so yea.. managed to maintain my GPA..
working has been tiring this past week or so..for this week..always feel like sleeping..

was serving last sat, felt satisfied and fulfilled..
went to partyworld on sat, had a blast and a great amount of laughing..

meet ups to look forward to:
meeting with ruiz
outing with family
meeting with WC and gang
meeting with carol and lin

2007-03-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i last updated, oh wells..hahaha!! lazy..
guess i quite enjoy my attachment in mayer, though it may be far from my house but the ppl there are nice, my supervisor there is nice too..am thankful for being posted to that company. another 8 weeks more to go.

an update on what i've been doing, well i almost got drunk ytd night while drink with my bro at home, he made me vodka mixed sprite, he poured about half a cup of vodka(absolut vodka), i was very high aft drinking it...hahahaha!! and i talked alot but still sober

hahahah! slept in today till 11, feels good sia, super long nv sleep so long le..hahahaha!! went ktv with my sister today..hahahaha!! we sang for 5 hrs, sang till super shiok..hahahaha!!

oh so happy, was on duty ytd, at foh, feels good to touch the foh mixer, its been a long time since i mixed. thank God the problem tat the mixer had on thurs did not happened ytd. phew..

2007-02-13T21:23:00.000+08:00

ipp has started, my office is at changi north, thank god there's the company bus that will fetch us in to the office at tenah merah. guess wat dept i've been posted to..i got posted to the accounts dept..hahahaha!! now am keying in stocks in spare parts, like doing inventory. they have 4000 over of different kinds of spare parts. it's actually quite fun, but very tedious to the eyes..
most of people in the office are ladies hahaha!! suddenly i feel so young.. oh wells, still dunno all the ppl there yet and still feel kinda shy talking to them (*hard to imgaine right?)

ok the good news is i might not need to work every sat (*keep praying for me peeps).
am praying hard i don't have to work this sat.

was in terrible pain ytd night, the side of my stomach was hurting so badly, the worse part was no one was at home.. tried to eat the chinese pills for tummy aches but it doesn't work, tried calling my bro but he din answer, tried calling my mum but she's still on the plane, ate painkiller, tried callling keith, on the 3rd try she picked up and i asked her to buy gastric pills, tried sleeping but couldn't.
spoke to God and he moved. cuz normally painkiller does not work on stopping the pain for this particular kind of pain, it took effect last night and the pain subsided..and i slept soundly.

things am looking forward to:
-valentines date with the wam ladies
-steamboat at puay's
-cny

2007-02-11T22:07:00.000+08:00

exams is like finally OVER!! yay!! rejoice with me..
can say the exam week was like a torture for me..am so glad its over and thankful.
celebrated the end of exmas last friday with wataa, jh and lilian at bugis sakae, oh my how we ate and enjoyed ourselves.. was supposed to join the pt3 peeps at ecp, haiz, my headache came again. prone to headaches nowadays..
anyways IPP starting tmr, kinda nervous..don't know what to expect tmr. i hope the supervisor's nice..hahahaha!! i still have not met the other person coming to the same company as me..hahaha!!

2007-02-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

ok i've decided to post today..
the exams so far are alright, confident to pass..hahaha!! so now its 2 down and 3 more to go.
oh man am like down with flu now, got it on sunday night, wasn't that bad ytd, it became worse today, haiz stubborn me refuse to take medication ytd..
feeling terrible now, with the block nose and occassional headaches..

i got my IPP posting ytd, and found out my pay, location of the comapny and my working hours today. Guess where's my office...its at changi north, i checked with the bus directory, it'll take me abt 1.5 hours to travel there -faints- imagine doing that for 3 mths. the worse part is i'll be working 5.5 days:(

ok i shall stop here or i'll never stop ranting..
sleeping soon too..

2007-01-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

i shall not post anything for the next 2 weeks.
Am having my study break now, can u imagine my exams is in 1 week's time.
ok, ytd was quite an emotional day for me, first time ever. Guess only those who saw will noe...played citadel for the very first time ytd, it's quite a fun game..quite interesting. hahaha!!

hee:) studied today with ruiz aft cg today, i enjoyed the talk with her. Feels good talking to her. and as crazy as i am she understands me..

Oh one thing i'm so thankful for, is abt my finiance test, as i typed in one of my entries i screwed up, but when i got back my results, guess wat i did not just pass but i got an A. I was expecting that i would just pass, but when i saw wat i got i was shocked, happy and thankful.

from tmr onwards i'll start to study like never before, this will be my first time studying so hard for exams, God i pray for your wisdom to be upon me as i study, help me to be focused and not get distracted.
I told myself i must study hard this year.. my aim is to haf no C's or D's or F's..